The shallow end of the pool of mediocrity…
By Steve:
Food:
8/9/2009: Breakfast: None Lunch: Pudding Cup(60) Dinner: Turkey Burger(160)
8/10/2009: Didn’t track.
8/11/2009: PB Protein Bar(340), Sweet Tea(96), Lemonade(110) Lunch: Buddig Lunch Meat(90), 1/2 slice cheese(35) Total: 671
8/12/2009: Breakfast: None Lunch: None Dinner: Lettuce(30), 2 Tbsp Shredded Cheese(30), FF Italian Dressing(25), 2 oz cheese(160), Grapes(40), 3 SF Peppermint patties(80), 6 SF Lifesavers(30), 4 cups Cranberry Juice(440) Late Night Binge: Chesters Buttery Popcorn(160), Cheetos(200), Dreamsicle(70) 2 cups chocolate milk(300) Total:1565 - I haven’t eaten this much since surgery.
Here’s a bit of me rambling, if ur not interested click away…
Eisy has no internet service while she’s doing an upgrade and I have no excuse, I just find it hard to post what I eat… or should I say don’t eat sometimes.
I stepped on the scale and I lost this week, but just not enough. I am angry with myself because that number is never enough. I feel like I’m drowning at times. My life is full of wonderful people who I either push away or they learn to love me. It’s just my personality, and I know that I have alot to work on.
I know that this blog is supposed to be about weight loss but I feel like every part of my life is about that so I speak freely here about my feelings. I step on the scale multiple times a day, I watch thinspo (video thinspiration), I keep a journal of the “pretty popular” people that I would like to be like someday. These goals are rarely attainable, yet I punish myself for not achieving them.
So it’s time to follow a dear friends advice and start making some goals. Here they are…
1. Eat at least 800 calories a day starting 8/13/2009.
2. Move my body at least 30 minutes a day starting 8/13/2009.
3. Be at my healthy weight by April 2nd, 2010 (My 30th Birthday)
4. Be nicer to myself and everyone around me Starting 8/13/2009.
This is just a start these are my goals for now. Number 3 is a big deal to me, I want to be healthy going into my 30’s I know that achieving this goal will be hard, but I can do it.
