Please watch this video and pass it on?
Eisy tries.
So I lost 25 lbs, said the doctor. So does that mean I get a free week? No, but it feels like I’ve entitled myself to eat a lot more than I should be, because I find myself thinking, ‘well, it won’t hurt if i eat this’ and it does hurt.
I weighed in today at 355 which is bad. I was 350 a while back and want to get back there so I can get into the 340’s and so on.
TODAYS FOOD
BREAKFAST: 24 oz. vanilla iced latte with whipped cream (see what I mean?)
(then later in the day, I pulled it together and..)
LUNCH: 1 artichoke and spinach w/chicken Lean Pocket
1 -12oz Gatorade
DINNER: to be determined
Labor Day… No Celebrating Here.
By Steve:
It’s Labor Day, I didn’t go to a picnic or anything, in fact I slept through most of the day… it what it is.
Back on plan today:
Breakfast: None
Lunch: None
Dinner: 3 oz ground chuck patty (197), 3 bites of potato (10)
Todays Total: 207 - That’s it for today.
Scale today: 389 lbs - That is disgusting, I am disgusted with myself.
That’s all for today, hope everyone has a lovely holiday.
Day Two… yeah that’s it!
By Steve:
So I’m doing this two days in a row? Can you believe that?
I decluttered my life of fat clothes that were filling up my closet! I got rid of two huge bags of fat clothes, gone forever!
Todays food:
Breakfast: 1/2 cup applesauce (70), 1/2 cup cottage cheese (90) Total: 160
Lunch: None
Dinner: 1/2 Lean Cuisine (90)
Late Night Snack: Turkey Dog (100) 1/2 Protein Bar (100) Total: 200
Today’s Total: 450
That’s more then I planned, but less then I should have, so maybe I’m heading in the right direction? We’ll see!
Posted an update video today: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZkVemp9KQMU
Let’s rock this shit!
See ya tomorrow!
Tomorrow’s Goal: Tell someone how well I’m doing… because I never say that!
Goals. What are they? Why do I suck at them?
By Eisy:
So, I don’t exactly stick to goals very well. I don’t have them in my head the minute I wake up like some people may have. I don’t set time goals, for a reason——it’s impossible for me to follow any sort of timeline.
So what do I do?
Well, I’ve come up with a sort of tentative goal list and it goes as follows:
1. By July 2010, I will have lost 70lbs. In order to do this, I have to break this all down and mathematically solve the riddle of my goal——how many lbs per week will I have to lose in order to get to goal? Also, how many calories per day will I have to consume/burn in order to achieve those goals?
3. By Christmas, I will have lost at least 45 lbs. To lose this weight by Christmas, I will have to consume 1400 cals per day.
——————What did I eat today?
Food Tracking sucks but it helps. I will try my best.
BREAKFAST: 2 cups grapes
LUNCH: Bacon lettuce tomato sandwich (fattening! plus I ate three pieces of bacon in addition to what was on my sandwich)
DINNER: 1 piece of smoked salmon, 1 coke
I am pretty sure I stayed below cals today. I will track it on my iphone to see.
That is all! : )
Sorry I’ve Been Away…
By Steve:
It’s been forever since I’ve posted here, thought it was time to make an update.
What’s been going on with me? Drama, life, and stuff.
Most people know about the Youtube drama, so I’m not going to reiterate it here, I will be making a return to youtube this evening, opposed to waiting to hitting some goal to come back. I should not have allowed myself to be impacted by anyone else. I have caused a fair part of the drama that is in my life online, I’ve been accused of not taking responsibility for my portion, so I’m working on it.
Let’s talk about the scale… it’s been a hell of a roller coaster as of late… I dipped down then up then back down then back up and landed back down today at 372 lbs… my lowest adult weight, that equals a 150 lb loss.
Am I happy with that number? Not really… but it’s a good start. I’m half way to goal.
Um Um Um, food, yeah that.
I don’t eat alot of it…
Today:
Breakfast: None
Lunch: None
Dinner: 1/2 Turkey Dog (50) 1 Onion Ring (40) Today’s Total: 90
Yeah not the best thing in the world, I planned on eating more… just didn’t want to, sorry I know I’m stubborn.
I hate food… more each day, not a healthy attitude, but neither was being in love with food.
Time to move forward… tomorrow is a new day…
This weeks goal:
- Smile more… it increases your face value :) - Steel Magnolias
The shallow end of the pool of mediocrity…
By Steve:
Food:
8/9/2009: Breakfast: None Lunch: Pudding Cup(60) Dinner: Turkey Burger(160)
8/10/2009: Didn’t track.
8/11/2009: PB Protein Bar(340), Sweet Tea(96), Lemonade(110) Lunch: Buddig Lunch Meat(90), 1/2 slice cheese(35) Total: 671
8/12/2009: Breakfast: None Lunch: None Dinner: Lettuce(30), 2 Tbsp Shredded Cheese(30), FF Italian Dressing(25), 2 oz cheese(160), Grapes(40), 3 SF Peppermint patties(80), 6 SF Lifesavers(30), 4 cups Cranberry Juice(440) Late Night Binge: Chesters Buttery Popcorn(160), Cheetos(200), Dreamsicle(70) 2 cups chocolate milk(300) Total:1565 - I haven’t eaten this much since surgery.
Here’s a bit of me rambling, if ur not interested click away…
Eisy has no internet service while she’s doing an upgrade and I have no excuse, I just find it hard to post what I eat… or should I say don’t eat sometimes.
I stepped on the scale and I lost this week, but just not enough. I am angry with myself because that number is never enough. I feel like I’m drowning at times. My life is full of wonderful people who I either push away or they learn to love me. It’s just my personality, and I know that I have alot to work on.
I know that this blog is supposed to be about weight loss but I feel like every part of my life is about that so I speak freely here about my feelings. I step on the scale multiple times a day, I watch thinspo (video thinspiration), I keep a journal of the “pretty popular” people that I would like to be like someday. These goals are rarely attainable, yet I punish myself for not achieving them.
So it’s time to follow a dear friends advice and start making some goals. Here they are…
1. Eat at least 800 calories a day starting 8/13/2009.
2. Move my body at least 30 minutes a day starting 8/13/2009.
3. Be at my healthy weight by April 2nd, 2010 (My 30th Birthday)
4. Be nicer to myself and everyone around me Starting 8/13/2009.
This is just a start these are my goals for now. Number 3 is a big deal to me, I want to be healthy going into my 30’s I know that achieving this goal will be hard, but I can do it.
No more saying I’m sorry…
By Steve:
First of all here’s what this blog is really about… food:
Breakfast: None Lunch: Slim-Fast + Milk (245) Dinner: Slim-Fast (180) Total: 425
Now why I chose this title, I find myself constantly saying I’m sorry. For misspeaking, for miscommunicating, for not picking the popular choice, for not being friends with certain people. I often find myself trying to do the right thing and that means saying I’m sorry even if I had no responsibility for whatever it is that I am apologizing. I have always tried to do the “right thing” by people. I have said sorry when someone else did something to me, just to try to be friends again. I won’t have anymore of that.
I’m going to talk now about things I’m not sorry for:
I’m not sorry for being me. I’m not sorry if you don’t agree with me. I’m not sorry if I tell you the absolute, honest truth about you… even if it hurts your feelings. I’m not sorry if I tell you are wrong when you are. I’m not sorry if I lash back at you with equally hurting remarks when you attack me. I’m not sorry if you think I’m below you. I’m not sorry if you don’t like me. I’m not sorry if you don’t know me well enough to know the truth. I’m not sorry if I say something that you don’t like. I’m not sorry if you hate me. I’m not sorry for my personal beliefs. I’m not sorry if you talk shit about me and I call you on it. I’m not sorry if I embarass you publicly for your own behavior. Finally I’m not sorry for those who don’t have the ability to not judge a book by a cover… or what the critics have said about it.
I hope that everyone is doing well on their plans, I finally broke that repetitive lose and gain and have lost five lbs today.
If all you ever do is all you’ve ever done; all you’ll ever get is what you’ve ever got.
meh…
By Steve:
Seems like I can’t have two good days in a row.
Food for Thursday August 6th, 2009:
Breakfast: Protein Shake + 1/4 Cup Milk (140) Lunch: Slim-Fast (180) Dinner: Slim-Fast (190) Total Calories: 510
Today’s Food:
Breakfast: None Lunch: 1 Bite of Cheese (vomited up), 1 Slim-Fast + 1/2 cup milk (245) Dinner: Slim-Fast (180) Total: 425
I’m so fed up with the scale not moving. It keeps going down then back up the same 3-4 lbs, just hate it.
Ok that’s all. See ya tomorrow.
A day of possibilities emerges…
By Steve:
Today is a good day. Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you. Have you ever woken up in the morning and for the first time in your life looked in the mirror and said I don’t look half bad? That’s what today has been like.
I have several pieces of good news. First of all I get to stop taking my cholesterol medicine… which I’ve been on for eight years! My cholesterol is NORMAL! If you don’t read my regular blog my family has a long history of heart disease, and this is really good news.
Second… My doctor got my water therapy/aerobics set up to start on Monday, which I’m very excited about!
Finally, I had an epiphany today and realized that all the drama isn’t worth my time or energy. I sent out some apologies and I’m ready to move on.
Now let’s talk about today’s food:
Breakfast: Slim-Fast + 1/2 Cup Milk (245), Lunch: Protein Shake + 1/2 cup milk (175), Dinner: Carnation Instant Breakfast (190) Total: 610
I’m starting an all liquid protein diet for a week to get some weight off quickly. I know that many don’t agree with this method, but frankly it’s my body and I’ll do what I want.
Take care of yourselves. Hug someone you love, and say what you never say enough.
